Raven Trinity Nott

How in the world do you help someone remember who/what they are if they're dead set against it? Do you let them be, and hope some day soon they remember themselves?

There's so much I want to do to help, I just don't know how to. That's partly the reason why I haven't gone to see Harry. Poor Jaz, she walks around here so lost. I don't know what to do to help her either. I don't know what she's going through. Sebastian and I are close, we're always there for each other, but we aren't as close as Harry and Jasmine are - were.

We need to do something. We all need to. Who's to say the school won't be attacked again? We're all slowly settling back into our old routines, but where did that get us? Where did that get Colin? I don't want to go home, but at the same time, I don't want to stay here and be helpless against another attack.

Maybe I should go home, Merlin knows I can't concentrate on my studies anymore.

Just a little update into my life.

-Was stood up at the dance. Which is a good thing, considering what happened with that little disaster.

-My brother and I are fighting parental units to stay here at Hogwarts, so is Theo from what I gather. They want us safe and sound under thier thumbs.

-Had an interesting conversation over these things.

-Failing a few classes, but am too stubborn to ask Sebastian for help.

-Have been dying to show off more of my stories, even if I didn't hear anything on the last one. But, I don't think this is the right time to do anything with those. Especially since I'm failing a couple classes.

-All in all, I'm doing okay. Now, I just need to figure out what it is I'm doing okay at...

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Okay, this may seem a little... irrational coming from a Gryffindor - but please just keep an open mind.

Everyone is having a fit about Lucius Malfoy coming to work here at Hogwarts. Now, yes, I can see how many people could see him as an evil sadistic creep, but, my family has known the Malfoys for ages. I can't say that I see this as a bad thing - his teaching Defense Against the Dark Arts... If nothing else, don't we get a much more indepth study? If he really is one of those Death Eaters and I don't doubt he is we could really benefit from a much more intense teaching from someone on that side. Or, am I just trying to be too much of an optimist? There's times like this, I don't know if I'm wrong or not.

Now that I've rambled on and perhaps alienated myself even further from other Gryffindors, maybe I should turn my atentions elsewhere?

The upcoming dance of impending doom... Sebastian has a decent girl to go with, Theo has Hermione - and might just have someone to keep him on his toes intellectually, and then there's me. I have yet to meet Terry Boot, I'm sure I've seen him in passing and maybe talked with him in class once or twice, but at the same time... I think I'm being avoided like the plague! Its times like this, I loose what bit of self confidence I am. Truly unbecoming of a Gryffindor, I know. Either way, I plan on going, head held high, and if I end up a wallflower, then so be it.

Now, I've been bored lately. Completely and utterly bored. Haven't been writing anything lyrical, but I have taken up writing short stories. I am dying to show them in here, maybe get some feedback, but at the same time - the lack of self worth kicks in. Should anyone read this and be interested in the writings of Raven Trinity Nott, just let me know.

Anyway, that's all for now. I should get back to paying attention in class...

Wow... Okay, I've been paired off to Terry Boot - I know he's not a Slytherin so that leaves me wondering, is he a Hufflepuffian, or have I seen him among the Ravenclaws? I can't remember.

Well, I guess I could have been paired off to worse. If nothing else, like I said before, this could be interesting. I guess, I have to find something appropriate for said ocassion.

Look at them! Both of the male Notts complaining. Why must I be the only one looking at this with an open mind? Yes, ofcourse I am annoyed at the fact I will be assigned a date for the night. Like I can't get one of my own. Pfft! But, I'm interested to see just who I end up being paired up with. Maybe, just maybe, this will be the beginning of something interesting.

Gryffindor! Gryffindor! Gryffindor!

We're so going to beat the snakes1 I can't wait!

Now, Hogsmeade, I'm sure everyone's going. Anyone going alone and need a friend to keep them company? I hate going down alone. It just makes me feel... blah. Anyway, I guess I'll sneak on down and pop up near a few people I know. Maybe bother my brother, or cousin. Okay, that's all. Have a great time.

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